Anxiety

Good Friday afternoon.  I know that many people deal with anxiety but I just wanted to take a minute to share some of my own experiences.  I think I have always had issues with it but for the past 6 years it has been a constant battle.  After many medications I wasn't feeling any better.  ( months ago, I ditched all the medication and I'm trying to deal with it on my own.  I believed that all my problem is Satan trying to tell me I can't do things.  Today has been a day of battle for me.  It all started with a headache.  I laid there thinking how much my head hurt and what could be causing it.  Instead of just realizing it was a simple sinus headache I weighed every other possible option.  Of course that kept me awake for most of the night.  When I got up this morning my head was still hurting pretty bad.  I took Jordan out to the bus stop and came home to go back to sleep.  When I woke up I was feeling better. Until I got up.  I felt weak all over.  My mind has been telling me all day that I can't do anything, but I know I can.  My mind is telling me that when I walk out to get Jordan off the bus I won't make it and someone will find me laying out on the ground.  I know this is insane so I'm trying to talk myself out of that notion.  It is a constant battle and talking about it helps.  I still have good days and bad days.  The bad days are rare now! I just ask that you pray for me and I battle this.  For those who have anxiety I'm sure you can relate.  For those who don't, understand that its a serious issue and be patient with the person dealing with it.  I have found that medication only masks the true problem and the only real way to get through it is to learn how to counter it with Gods words and prayer.I'm sorry if this post bores you but the point of my blog is to tell what I'm thinking and feeling and this is a part of who I am.  I hope you have a great weekend! I'm looking forward to spending some time with Chris and Jordan and with their help fighting this battle.

God Bless

Just as a side not for thos concerned.  I didn't not stop taking my meds cold Turkey.  I took about 6 months backing off of them.  I knew from experience that just stopping could cause problems.  I was on 3 medications nad backed off of them one at a time over a long period of time.  I feel so much better not being drugged!